“I tried finding myself in the culture overpowering mine and I couldn’t align both together hence I tried mixing it with the water and let it flow into the stream.” 

A settlement might be hard or easy, it usually impacts one’s culture and practices. As an Indian, when I first settled in a foreign world; it made me realize various trends and helped me recognize natives. As I settled in a foreign land, I tried pushing my ethnicity and traditions and finally dissolved to be seen as a native and not an outcast. The fear of looking ‘different’ was too embarrassing and discomforting. My culture was too loud and too bright for being minimal. It had too many characters for it to be seen as soft and approachable to the new community. Hence I tried mixing myself into a new trend (new culture). Camouflaging my artforms, engaging them with a more modern and minimalistic approach created a comfort. As I was recognizing my insecurities, questioning them constantly gave them a meaning.

“Why do you feel insecure about your accent?” “Does it make you small if English isn’t your first language?” This made me realize that the shame was unhinged but I was losing a great part of my identity as I was falsely camouflaging. 

Through this piece I’ve recognized a Middle Ground where I am standing currently. It does not include a contrasting behavior or a completely contrasting situation. It only provides one with a perspective of self realization.